You know... I wish I was 12 again.
I wish I was so full of motivation, and creativity, and had so much passion for art as I did back then.
But now, 6 years later, I can't even finish a single drawing. Because everytime I start something, it ends up being only a sketch. A sketch that will never be refined, coloured... And it seriously makes me feel torn apart. I literally am sobbing right now.
Why is nothing going right? Why can't I draw anymore? And it's been almost 2 years now that I've kept asking myself.
I miss this site. And I miss the FA. The community. The people. The joy of commissioners when they received their paintings. The thrilling sense of accomplishment after I submitted something. And I am just wondering what happened that all of this has just disappeared for me.
But deep inside, I hope that I will come back here. Someday. Maybe when I move out and finally have some true peace. When all this stress I receive at home will be gone... I don't know.
And I just hope some of you won't forget about me. As Rizuuki. As Freeska. Whatever.
Just.. See you in a better time.
Love you all.